Of things that change and those that don’t.

I’ve sold my home. How final that sounds. I am still very much of two minds  about it all – which is a bit silly as it is definitely gone! I stood there on Friday after the movers cleared out and thought “oh dear, now this is a mistake” almost immediately followed by “I’m free, free free!’

The place started as just a house but over the years evolved into a wonderful  sheltering home. I moved in with my 15 year old son, brittle, bitter and so very fragile. I was terrified quite frankly and absolutely determined to shield him from my inadequacies.

Time passed, as it does, we grew and blossomed within that house and gradually as it became a home we became more ourselves. My inadequacies weren’t nearly as dreadful as I thought. My son mastered his schooling issues and has grown into a fine young man with a strong work ethic, living in Edmonton and with a prediliction for unfortunate looking facial hair – LOL!

I am becoming the woman I always wanted to be. I’ve discovered an artistic side I had never tapped into, an abitity to make and keep friends all over the world, a degree of compassion that frankly astonishes me and a sensuality that I never allowed to really blossom before. Of course one thing which hasn’t changed is my love of travel – which is why we come back to selling the house

My home has sheltered my son, my sister, both my parents (memorably once at the same time!) many, many furred and feathered friends and seen a lot of living. We have all laughed and cried, fought and stomped, worked and played within its sheltering walls. There have been memorable family gatherings, chicks nights,  garden parties, trashy movie nights, marathon cooking sessions and more than a few late night wine or whisky fuelled dialogues.

Looking back it seems impossible that I should want to leave it, but I’m ready – I think. I purchased a condo in the neighbourhood about a year ago and while they haven’t yet broken ground it should be soon-ish – I hope!

I’ve been feeling lately that I’m owned by my “things” and not the otherway around – there is too much maintenance for me right now. So the decision to sell and now I will be travelling for the next couple of years until my condo is ready! I am inordinately pleased with myself at the moment, as I have succeeded in packing everything I need for FIVE months of completely different requirements into two suitcases! Remember I am NOT a minimalist but I’m gonna work on it!

The first leg of my journey encompasses Italy for a girlfriend’s 60th birthday party – a villa in Umbria for a four day weekend; India for six weeks, a bit over three in Tirumangalam at a childrens charity, and the rest in Ladakh where I will connect up with my guide Tsering from 2013; then Morocco with my sweetie driving around with out much of a preplanned itinerary; and eventually walking the entire length of El Camino de Santiago de Compostela – between 800 & 1,200 km. depending on who you ask and which route you take. Also depending on how much ground I cover daily, I will have a couple of weeks at the end to do something else before flying home in November – maybe Germany to visit a friend or possibly Ireland where my great-grandmother hailed from or Scotland for the whisky!

There is such a seductive power to this kind of freedom – I know it isn’t for everyone and I know there are probably an equal number who would cheerfully murder to take my place. So I shall write and write often. Please favour me with your comments – I may be a gypsy now but I am still firmly rooted at home with friends and family. Indeed at the end of the day leaving my home wasn’t the hardest, the truely difficult part was leaving the people who are dearest to me, they are what makes a home and that I can carry in my heart always!

9 thoughts on “Of things that change and those that don’t.

  1. We’ll miss you too but I think it’s wonderful to watch each of us grow into ourselves. Our hearts and souls will always be close. Travel safe.

  2. Moving description of home. You will have it in your heart while you make a new one of the condo-to-be. Travel safe and it’ll be fun to follow vicariously.

    • What eloquence! Miss you already Smith. Hope you’ll grace us with your presence either here in Toronto when you’re back in the fall, or perchance in Florida … ?? Enjoy. You deserve it TB 🙂

  3. Hi Kim, What a lovely deep but humorous note.

    Please come and visit the Dordogne if you have time in the coming months.

    I also have BIG plans.. I am hoping to get bariatric surgery sometime in September or October to lose weight seriously. Prep work started. A new world out there…

    Do keep me posted with you activities. In the meantime, hugs and bonne route. Wendy

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  4. Well, all I can say is GOODY!!! Your 1st blog, this will be like a miniseries, or in the old days when authors wrote a chapter at a time. I am so excited for YOU! and for Me! as I get to live vicariously through you. Good to mix it up. More impressed am I at the fervour with which you dismantled a home and dealt with a zillion details! Now sleep for a week, cuddle with your sweetie. DRINK and do NOTHING.

  5. Can feel right to your heart in this writing. Thank you for sharing your inner journey as you look back. I love our friendship and so look forward to more time together both in India and Spain. Hugs from Orissa after very little sleep on an overnight train. Xxxx

  6. Beautiful writing, I feel your pain and your exhilaration. I think when you look back in five months time or so, that’s when you’ll really know what to feel. Hoping to reminisce together with you in Germany of course, or else may see if I can get in a day to help your whisky tasting in Scotland or carrying your bag(s) whilst following your grand-grandmother’s trail in Ireland. Take care, nice beginnings, and one request: Do NOT be as lazy as I have been for a while in updating your blog!

  7. We just never know how strong we are until we are faced with issues but Kim you are to be admired and I do admire you….and that is from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for sharing this wonderful post and I look forward to reading every one. Safe travels and see you later! Carla

  8. It really is jumping out of the Nest again….free falling with the wind rushing and a world of adventure and possibilities awaiting to greet your smiling and so very brave self. Cheers Kim….everything and everyone here awaits your tales over a glass of….. and a fantastic meal that pairs perfectly. Much love…to be continued indeed.

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